Oh, it's not because I'm being stalked or anything.

I'm just a bitch.

And lazy.

(If, for some crazy reason, you want me to friend you, just drop me a line)


Fish

"There is something so ambiguous and suggestive about the word love, something that speaks to memory and to hope, that even the lowest intelligence and the coldest heart still feel something of the glimmer of this word."

OH MY DEAR SWEET LORD, I JUST RUINED POTC 2 FOR MYSELF.

I'm going to KILL MYSELF.

OMG.

OMG. IT'S THE MOST SPOILER-IFIC SPOILER EVER. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA! I'M SUCH A FUCKING RETARD!

This is the kind of spoiler that will DESTROY a greater mind than mine to keep it, but I MUST. For I could not do this to ANYONE else. Sweet Jeebus. You have no idea.

... Anyhow, now that I got that off my chest. >.> I obviously deleted my depression post because God, no one needs to see that shit. -I- was tired of seeing that shit. But Valentine's was pretty sucky, still... because my roommate brought her boyfriend over and giggled and whispered for fucking HOURS. What they were whispering for is BEYOND me, as I was wearing headphones and could only hear them between songs. I put on the headphones because they were driving me fucking nuts. And then they SETTLE DOWN FOR THE NIGHT.

Both of them.

In her bed.

First of all, how do you even fit two people ON a bed that size? Second of all: CREEPY. HELLO. You are SHARING A ROOM. Do you think she ever stopped to think about how I would feel about this little development? Because I TOTALLY don't. Not to mention it's against the rules, too. You're allowed to have a member of the same sex in your dorm with your roommate's permission. I didn't get any fucking say in this. I'm honestly uncomfortable with this. Seriously. O.o It's creepy. I'm going to see if I can change rooms. >.< I hate living with her. I should have just listened to my father. "You sure you don't want a single? It's only so-and-so more." "Yeah, I want to try living with someone else."

... STUPID.

>.<

So that's what's up with me. Meh. I also have my first exam tomorrow. Intro to Arts of Asia, gaaaag. >.> We'll see how it goes. Wish me luck!


Fish

Your quote? ( IS A COMIC! )

Tee hee, Silent Hill 4.

Jon Stewart = YES.

XDD I've been asking myself that for years.

He's such a cute older man. :D He gave a little grin and I squealed. XDD

ANYHOW. I went to see my Bishoujo this weekend. ^_^ It was so much fun. We RPed and went to see Final Destination 3 and they played through Silent Hill 4 while I watched. X3 The most wonderful thing about it is that soon it'll hopefully be a much more frequent occurrence. :D They're going to be so sick of me soon. And on the way back to NAU, we stopped at China Buffet. I was so stuffed I could hardly move when I left, but now I wish I had eaten more. T____T It's so gooooood!!! I want Chineeeeese!! I want Chinese and Katamari. Good god, I want Katamari. >.>

God, this post is so random. And I would say more, but I just got really, horribly depressed, so I'm going to go before I start babbling about THAT melodramatic shit. I'd wish everyone a happy Valentine's, but I'd rather forget it exists right now, sankyuu. ^_^


Fish

YOU ARE WHITE.

YOU ARE WHITER THAN WHITE!!

YOU ARE EVEN WHITER THAN THE PEOPLE BACK IN GARLAND.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, TURN THE FUCKING RAP DOWN.

But at the very least it's not country.

Oh, and by the way: I have it from people here at the college that I did, in fact, land in the party dorm. I wish they would write this shit on the site.


Fish

“::explaining the abbreviation OPP on his shirt:: Orleans Parish Prison. I did not do time… there.” ~ my Comm Analysis teacher

Well, I thought it was about that fucking time. So Ah present...

( Piccus of my dorm room! )

So there you go. That's where I'm living. ^_^ I so need things to put on the walls... >.> One of my RA's apparently got fired last night. But I think if you take a picture of something you aren't allowed to be doing and post it on the internet for God and everybody to see, you deserve to be fired. If only for sheer stupidity. ... Anyhow. Now I'm off to my very boring first period class. ^_^;; Byye!


Fish

"Think of it this way: It's like a picnic, only there's no food, and we're all gonna die." ~ Penny Arcade.

Either do not wait to do your laundry until the elevators are out of order, or do not wait to do ALL YOUR LAUNDRY AT ONCE.

::heartattackdie::

I'm pretty sure they became out of order when everyone was using them to go back up to their rooms after our lovely three a.m. fire alarm. Makes me glad I took the stairs. Having to stand out in the Flagstaff winter night for fifteen minutes bad enough; I think someone might have died if I was stuck in an elevator with boys that think it's funny to push each other into my room.

Bastards. Anyhow, before I go to bed, to make this post worthwhile, here's ( a survey. )


Fish

"It's like nails on the chalkboard of MY MIND."

God, I have NO idea what my deal is tonight. I'm in near hysterics and I have no idea why. And I'm ashamed of how I'm behaving, and that only makes it worse, and I cry even more, and then I get more ashamed, and... well, you can see where this is going. It's a vicious fucking cycle and I'm angry on top of it because I have no idea where this is coming from, and I'm angry at myself for not having enough control over myself to stop. It just seems like I'm screwing up so much tonight and I just hate myself for it.

... I've managed to get myself a little more under control, and I'm going to go to the University Union. I don't feel like it, but I know I won't eat if I don't, and that's all I need tonight. I wish I would stop getting so much spam, because it just reminds me that I'm not getting any other sort of mail.


Fish

"Opposable thumbs does not a Jesus make." ~ the Colbert Report, when comparing the South Park Jesus to Aslan.

I guess my roommate experience has been pretty positive so far… because my roommate hasn’t often been here. But my chances of ever wanting a roommate again are now non-existent. At about 10 am today, my roommate showed up,with a friend. I was sleeping. They proceeded to turn on TV and talk loudly while I tried valiently to sleep. And tried. And tried. For a hour and a half.

Now, some might say it was my own fault for staying up so late. But that's not the fucking point. I recognize that my sleep schedule probably isn't going to match hers, but is a little consideration too much to ask? When I'm up and SHE'S asleep, I go out of my way to make sure that I don't disturb her. I recognize she needs her sleep. To be shown such disreguard... I honestly find it insulting. And maybe I wouldn't be so pissed off if I didn't have a lot of plans today. I -was- busy, and now I'm just too tired to do most of it.

Now that she's finally gone, I think I'm going to scrap my day and go back to sleep. But I'll tell you, I'm never going to go with a roommate again.


Fish

"An escalator can never break; it can only become stairs. You wouldnever see an 'Escalator Temporarily Out Of Order' sign, just 'EscalatorTemporarily Stairs. Sorry for the convenience.'" ~ Mitch Hedburg

Title comes from the Daily Show's report about Republican's having to take two votes for new House majority leader because there were more votes cast than Republicans present.

Way to prove you guys are on the level! I totally trust the welfare of my nation in this party's capable, trustworthy hands!

... I wanna see Chocolat again. ;_; Oh, and by the way, I was not overreacting about what I went to the doctor for, but now I have wonderful medication to make me all better and possibly drowsy.


Fish

"Brokeback Mountain's got me feelin' you." ~ Charles Barkley, to Jon Stewart

Yeeah, bitch! Of course I wish it had been the class I -didn't- like as opposed to the one I did, but eh. Whatever. Class is canceled, and that = good.

You know what = bad? I kinda feel like crap. I'm going to the health center here on campus. And of course I'm nervous about it (I'm always nervous. About EVERYTHING), but hopefully it'll be simple, I'm either overreacting or I'll get some antibiodics and I'll be fine.

Hope hope hope. I'll probably go take a bath and then I'll be getting some lunch and doing that. <3 Maybe I'll make a better post when I get back from the doctor.


Fish

"I was in a casino, minding my own business, and this guy came up to me and said, 'You're gonna have to move. You're blocking a fire exit.' As though if there was a fire, I wasn't gonna run. If you're flammable and have legs, you are never blocking a fire exit. Unless you're a table." ~ Mitch Hedberg

AH MISS HER SOOO MUCH. ::SOB:: I want my own apartment just so I can bring my CAT. Seriously, I miss her so much. She's like a furry bundle of emotional support. Always there. Never judging. Amidst everything that's new and different, it would be really nice to have just that one little bit of same.

Now, why I posted this in the first place. I always knew it was coming. -Always-. And now it has: http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/whenastrangercalls/

KNEW IT.


Fish

"I'd hate someone that -announces- their fighting move before they do it, too. That's like automatic hate."

Lordy lordy, I think I have, though perhaps not quite a new friend, most certainly a pleasant acquaintance.

It's a big deal for me, considering it's the first pleasant acquaintance I've made here in Flagstaff that seems both sane AND approachable, and it's the first pleasant acquaintance I've made perhaps anywhere in the real world in quite a while. Perhaps it's silly, and even a little sad, but it makes me happy to have someone to trade smarmy comments with in Theatre, at the very least.

I know I had something else to say, but I... can't remember what it was. So I'm going to sleep for a few hours, and then I'm going to sleep some more, because sleep was something I didn't do last night. At all.


Fish

"What happened in the Dark Ages?"
"Plagues!"

Hey. Lookit. I'm aliiive.

I hate mvoing Shiwoo down, though. I'm so in love with him.

Anyhow. School is going okay. The only class I really don't like is Introduction to Arts of Asia. How is that possibe, you ask? You like history. You like art. You like Asia. Well, I don't know. But it's still boring as sin.

My Drawing Fundamentals class is really great. I'm learning the stuff most of you art geeks learned years ago. XD Today we drew a box. ZOMG! But last time we worked on gesture and contour drawing. I really... really don't like contour drawing. XD And you know what I hate even more than contour drawing? Posing for contour drawing. XD It's like I somehow managed to pick a position that seemed comfortable and somehow two SECONDS after she told them to start my mind went "oh fuck". I was just praying for God to kill me by the end of it. XDD

You know, I had some odd, childish idea that college would be a place of scholarly pursuits. That I would feel left out and dumb because I don't particurally want to join a study group. All I've seen here at NAU is people stoned or drunk (including a group of guys abusing a hookah by using it to smoke pot. Bastards)... and (heard) people having sex. My dorm can bring you the lovely quote of "I want to fuck him sooo bad but he's such an asshole".

Now I feel smart.

Now, I have nothing against you, if you decide you want to bring your boyfriend back to your dorm room. But for the love of God, rememember that there are people ALL around you. Bite your lip or something.


Fish

"Oedipus ruined a perfectly good sex life by asking too many questions."
"So... got any kids?" ~ the Colbert Report

Ah'm in love with a boy that's prettier than me, with pale perfect skin, that would do whatever I wanted him to.



Oh, SHIWOO! ::swoon!::

Anyhow. ^_^ I'm feeling blah and not at all coherant and up to snuff right now, so if you want to hear about my second day and the rest of my professors, honestly want to hear about it, give me a comment.

And finally: http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0046/0046_01.asp

Chelsea had it up on her journal, and I feel the need to share it with you that didn't see it there. XDD Dungeons of bondage!! (sounds kinky, no? I think I want one)


Fish

"Whenever one of my kids asks me why I let the other do something and not them, I say "Because I like them better than you". Shuts 'em right up." ~ my Comm. Analysis teacher. XD

I need $550. ;_;

::worships Shiwoo:: Yeah. >.>

ANYHOW. COLLEGE. (WHICH IS NOT A DOLLFIE)

First day report!


Intro into Arts of Asia
My teacher is Hungarian. O.o And talks it. Other than that, the course seems rather boring. Oh well. Liberal Arts credit. Have to do it.

Intro to Theatre
This looks like a rather easy class... but that's probably because I've been taking Theatre since middle school, and while none of those classes might equal a college theatre course -alone-, I think four and a half freaking years or however long I did it might give me a good boost. That teacher seems nice, silly, and exuberant. X3 I like her.

Communication Analysis
This class = fuck yes. I'm SO exicted about it. >.< It's like Speech, only, you know... DOESN'T SUCK. First of all, it's a 2:30 class... but our teacher told us that we would usually get out of there an hour -- AN HOUR -- earlier than expected. Like he said, he's given us back 10 or 12 hours of our LIFE. And speaking of? The teacher is fucking awesome. Hilarious. XD I love him. And when we complained about our essays, he told us they were only going to be 250-500 words. My last GAIA ENTRY was longer than that.

X3 I wanna take nothing but Communication Analysis.

BUT today... Drawing Fundamentals. Hope that doesn't suck. :D

Oh.

And my God, I WANT BEJEWELED. SO FUCKING AWESOME. That hour demo was like the best one-night gaming stand I've ever had.


Fish

"The essays will only be 250 to 500 words..."
"That's not an eassy, that's a long sentance!"
"I see someone likes commas." ~ teh Com teacher and me. X333 Oh, did I mention his name is James? James... Anderson? XDD Apparently People named James Anderson = teh awesome.

Screw terrorists. Those goddamned elves are taking us down from the inside.

http://www.mavav.org/

Oh, it makes me laaaaaaaaaaugh.

Laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh.

Just a few hilights of this crusade against those mind-controlling electronic entertainment devices:
"Articles"
+ Massive Multiplayer Role Playing... Game or Fatal Attraction?
+ E3: The Evil Entertainment Expo
+ Video Game Networks or Online Training Camps?
+ Americas Army: A New Low

"Resources"
+ Young gamers are prone to being burdened with depression and sadness all throughout their life.
Personally, I think it's less the video games as having to deal with idiots like MAVAV. Loosing faith in humanity can get a person down, you know?
+ Health studies have found that even those casual gamers suffer from low self-esteem and self-pride compared to their athletic and more socially accepted peers in their same age group.
Well, here's a thought. Maybe it's people like you refering to them as "socially unaccepted" that's getting them down. God, never become a guidance counselor. People would kill themselves.
+ Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games (MMORPG) is a digital escape from the real world for emotionally unhealthy and mentally unstable people. It is a place for computer enthusiasts and social outcasts to gather un-bothered and un-harassed by the realities of rea llife.
OMG. It's.... people... exercising their imagination! MY GOD. THE HORROR. OF COURSE, they MUST be the dregs of society! No good god-fearing adult would want to pretend they're an ELF.
+ Video game addiction has become so serious now that the mass-media now compares video game addiction to alcohol and drug abuse.
I must have missed that segment on CNN. Oh, yes, and where does being addicted to video games kill you? I've never had to worry about getting off FFVII, jumping in a car, and crashing because of the PS high.
+ Do video games make people violent? Yes. What was once a debatable question, is now fact. New research hasconcluded that video game violence and behavior related violence are infact closely related.
Where is this research? Please, MAVAV, link us! Oh, wait, it's complete bullshit? Yeah, I figured.

I hate stupid people. And most of all, I hate stupid people that think they're better and smarter than you.

Anyhow, I finally met my roommate, Tiffany. ^_^ Luckily enough, she seems to be a sweetheart. She gave me permission to watch her TV. :DD Which I would be doing, but it's really freaking hard to find channels on what I believe is NAU cable. Or something. Yeah, it's fucked up.

I've been watching movies instead. :D I walked to Blockbuster and picked up Chicago, Chocolat, and Serenity. The last two I hadn't seen. I never really thought Chocolat was my sort of movie. I thought it was going to be pretentious, French, and coyingly romantic (don't get me wrong, I like my romance, but coyingly.) I was really, -really- pleasently surprised. It was just as good as everyone had been saying. ^_^ And Serenity. OH. MY. GOD. Even I have my moments of extreme idiocy, which is the only -possible- way that even with Many-mun's hearty recommendation and adoration of the series, that I could manage NOT to see it until now. GOD I loved it. Serenity soothes the ache of George Lucas raping my memories. I daresay I might even have found a cure for Hayden Christiansen. It's okay that he gets up and can't act his way out of a paper bag, because I have -Serenity-.

I am, at the moment, torn. Because I'm hungry, but I don't know if I'm hungry enough to walk over to the University Union or if it'll even be open today. And so I continue to be hungry. >.> It doesn't help that I'm either adjusting dramatically to the mountain air, or I'm sick. x_x

And in other news: I apparently got the party dorm.


Fish

"Doctor, I'm takin' your sister under my protection here. If anything happens to her, anything at all, I swear to you, I will get very choked up. Honestly, there could be tears." ~ Mal, Serenity

Someone in my dorm is listening to the Hot Fuss, and I can recognize it through the walls. XD I'm... strangely proud.


ANYHOW. Mah class schedual (as it stands now):

Monday

VC 152 (02)
TYPE FOUNDATIONS
8:00AM - 11:00AM

ART 135 (5)
DRAWING FUNDAMENTALS I
12:40PM - 3:10PM


Tuesday

ARH 143 (2)
INTRO TO THE ARTS OF ASIA
9:35AM - 10:50AM

COM 101 (03)
COMMUNICATION ANALYSIS
5:30PM - 8:00PM (teh late-ass class)


Wednesday

ART 135 (5)
DRAWING FUNDAMENTALS I
12:40PM - 3:10PM


Thursday

ARH 143 (2)
INTRO TO THE ARTS OF ASIA
9:35AM - 10:50AM


And that's all. EVERY WEEKEND IS A THREE-DAY WEEKEND FOR ME~!

I'll probably be adding one more class. ^_^ One of the Liberal Studies classes I need 35 units of to graduate. XD

It's so weird to think that I only have to take one English. ONE. One math. One history, one lab science. College IS so much better than highschool. Almost everything up there? Directly related to my major. They don't fuck around. You know what you want to do? You go out there and -do- it.

THANK. GOD.

Oh, and also, my address here at school is:

Rachel Strunc
NAU Box 10099
Flagstaff, AZ 86011

Just in case you get the crazy urge to send the Fish a care package, or something. XD I most want:

+ Posters and assorted things to put on my walls
+ Picture frames (the normal photo size)
+ DVDs, as I don't have a TV. Or any DVDs.

School starts on Tuesday! Woobah!


Fish

"Think of it this way. It's like a picnic, only there's no food, and we're all gonna die."~ Penny Arcade

(10:23 a.m.) Ah, the undesputed joy of a laptop.

I'm trping this from well, well over the wholly uninterterestng landscape of West Texas, squeezed in the middle of an American Airlines' passenger sandwich. I love flying, but God, I hate airplane. I am not a fan of being crowded... and in a plane, that's basically the only option you have. >.< Not to metnion this piece of shit is oooold. And hot. >.> I can't wait to land.

So... cleaning. Yeah. That... kinda didn't turn out like I thought. Basically I had a huge screaming breakdown. Hoooh yeah. Not pleasent. I still don't know why it happened, but most of the people I talked to vote "nerves".

The strange thing is I'm not nervous, not really. I think I'll be nervous when I get there. When I'm settled into my dorm. That's when the urge to crawl the walls will hit. >.> Right now I'm too busy too be nervous. I packed four and a half suitcases full of crap. One and a half were clothes, one half was my printer, another is gifts and bath supplies, and then there are assorted odds and ends, like my sheets, my D&D books, and suchlike. And STILL, I did not have enough room ot bring everything I wanted. Like my Al pillow. ;_; I'm gonna miss him.

I might see about getting a storage locker in Flagstaff so I don't have to pack all this shit up again. XD

Anyhow, my mother drove us to the airport, and we shared a tearful goodbye. As much as she abused my babysitting ability, as much as she wasn't the most amazing mother in the world, I love her, and I've never been more than a half hour away from her for any real length of time. I'm going to miss her so much.

My father, on the other hand, has been riding my ass so much I wonder if it's not his intention to make me WANT to get away from him so much I don't miss him. -_- Oh well. I'm probably going to amuse myself with reading or sleeping or something. Ja, everybody. I'll update this when I get a chance. ^_^


(9:49 p.m., ca-razy Arizona time) Well, I'm mostly settled in. ::coughs and nudges a still-full suitcase away with a foot:: ^_^ I jumped on in hopes of seeing Bishoujo and squeeing, but alas, it seems it was not to be. But I'll wait. ^_^ Maube she'll pop on later and the squeeing will abound.

The flight ended up being very, very bumpy. o.o Like the bumpiest plane I've EVER been on. At one point they had to stop serving and I thought we were all gonna die. XD And wouldn't THAT have sucked?

But I survived, and we disembarked in Sky Harbor, a place that has a lot of happy memories for me. I guided my father to a place to eat by remembering were Bishoujo, Quinn, and I stopped when I came to visit. ^_^ We also stopped by and saw my relatives... whish we're going to do again on Saturday. ^-^; Joy.

The ride itself was long but not unpleasent. ^_^ I slept a bit (not nearly as much as I needed) and it seemed not that long at all that we were here. The first thing we did was check into the dorm. The rooms are small, and the bed is more like a prison cot... but it's home sweet home for now. ^__^ I have a roommate, but she isn't here. From what I can see from her clothes and pictures, she looks like the type to either be nice, or a total bitch. XD

The only real problem I have is that it's fucking sweltering. o.o It's freezing outside, and I have the window open... but it's still not cooling down. When I felt a breeze across my ankles, I thought I was going to sob with joy.

Anyhow, after that, we went out to get more odds and ends, and then explored Flagstaff. ^_^ It really is beautiful. We went out to eat at a fancy Italian resturant, and then I came back here to start really setting up my room and internet. I'm on the school's system, which basically means they're monitoring me. XD But...

OMGOMGOMG.

BROADBAND.

IT'S BROADBAND.

SO FUCKING FAST. ::dies of joy::

... and now I think I'll go get a drink, and start really unpacking. ^-^ Ja.


Fish

Peter Griffin: This party couldn't be better if Jesus was here.
Jesus: For my next miracle, I will turn water... into FUNK.
[set turns into disco]

Today I'm going over to my mother's to clean out my room there. And I wear to god, I WILL shake off my packrat tendancies! Everything goes! What I had sentimental value to is now in my father's room, decorating my dresser, and will come with me when I go to Arizona.

In THREE DAYS.

In these three days, I am both busy with my packing and suchlike, and making a page for Bishoujo. I've been working at a fairly good clip, which surprises me. I think it's because she provides me the info, and I go to town. ^_^ I think I might think about uploading a graphic backgound. >.> Yes, I think I'll work on it once I get home.

GAAWD, don't wanna clean...

But I must. Ja.


Fish

"Things are not amazing. I'm a monkey in a mask! Why does a monkey need a mask? To hide the fact I'm a monkey? Maybe my tail should be wearing a mask, too!" ~ Cosmo, Fairly Oddparents (I was babysitting yesterday)

I submit:

FMA is the master of the OHSHIT moment. MASTAH.

END.

Anyhow, now that I've got that my system, my day. It was productive, it was. My mother woke me up to say she was going to Half-Priced Books, and I NEVER pass up a chance to go by Half-Priced Books. One of her doctors gave her a $300 gift certificate. To HALF-PRICED BOOKS. Do you KNOW how long it'll take to spend that? XD I splurged, as I do with the gift card he frequantly gives her. I'm on my way to owning every Stephen King novel ever published. X3 Now I just need to find time to READ them.

After HPB (hah, it's like HBP, only not) we wen't to Fry's with $296 dollars clutched in my grubby mits, and proceeded to blow $200 of it on a laptop case, a mouse, a surge protector, USB cable... and a printer, scanner, and copier that will most likely have to be shipped to me in college. ^_^ But it is a pretty baby.

And after that, we went to eat at Bennigans (or however the fuck you spell it; I'm way too tired to check), on me. Basically just a day for me to hang out with my mother. ^_^ And you know what? The best part of all? She asked me to babysit. And I said NO. I ACTUALLY SAID NO!! -I- said -NO-. XDD

God, I'm an idiot. XD

And speaking of, I love my laptop. So much. Only the fear of knocking it on the floor keeps me from sleeping with it cuddled up to my chest.

Oh, and in case you haven't noticed, the "getting back onto normal people time"? Totally not working. XD DAMMIT.


/Fish

"A Stephen King novel with Johnny Depp on the cover. What more could you ask for?"